Sometimes, a day out in the mountains can help clear your mind and heart, though the dilemma on your mind still remains. And so I ponder just what I should do, as it seems everyone loves me today, though a week ago I felt quite unloved!
This probably has more to do with my past than I'd like to admit. You see, when I was in the 6th grade, all the boys in my class decided that I was the most ugly girl, that I stank and so on. They picked on me and teased me mercilessly, until finally in desperation toward the end of the year I could not take it any more. Just one too many times was way too many and I beat the living daylights out of one of them! Schools seemed not to understand the dangers of bullying back then (1966) though I sadly must admit that kid ended up hospitalized with broken ribs and a concussion. I never got in trouble though, as he told his parents and the school he'd fallen off a building, probably too ashamed to admit a girl beat him up. His buddies knew the truth though, I'm sure. After that, none of them said a word to me. I was never invited out on any dates, to the prom or anything like that either.
So, these days, when folks seem to ignore me (though they probably just have things on their minds or are busy) I tend to feel unloved, unwanted, etc. Then when I get invited places and receive a lot of phone calls, I suddenly feel overwhelmed. Which invitation(s) should I accept, and which leave behind? Now, two fall on the same day, the same time!
I'm not one to toss a coin...
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